You~

Darkness surround me..

I was walking all alone..

In the alley of life..

Cold creeping through my bare bones..

Fear starts to haunt me..

I pray..I pray for a miracle..

Then I saw a bright light..

Far end of the dark alley..

I speed my steps toward the light..

I saw you..

It was you..

You are the light..

The light of my life..

You are my miracle..

Muhamad Irsyaduddin Yahaya 

Alone~

I'm suffering alone..
Does anyone cares?
I'm in pain..
Does anyone give a damn?
Whatever I feel, whatever i think..
Nobody seems to care..
Truth hurts..
Crying alone..
Feeling rejected, exploited, alienated..

All I need was warm love and care..
From friends and family, especially..
What people talk and think about me,
I say out loud IT NEVER MATTER TO ME..
I lied..

Those harsh words, those torn voice tones..
...

It hurt..a lot..

Empty~

Throwing my sight out of the window

Looking far, far away

Trying to get myself out of this empty room

Just trying to get myself out of this empty life

The empty life of mine

Thinking back about me

How my life went on all this while

Wish I could erase all the memories

Memories that I never want to remember

Not anymore

This is how I am

This is just who I really are

Am I really nothing?

Do I mean nothing to you?

I don’t want to be anyone else

I never want to change myself

Just to please you

I know I won’t be happy

If I turned out to be somebody else

Could you just accept me for me?

Not who you want me to be

Please just accept me

Still in Sorrow~

I don't even know..
Why I feel this way...
Why I hesitated with you..

I hate this feeling..
I hate being apart from you..
I don't know what should I do..
What's the best for us?
What's the best for you..
All I ever wanted is to happy with you..
But what most important is for you to be happy..
Happy in your life..

I want only the best for you..
Yet I can't be the best for you..
I'm so sorry..

My Love,
Thanx for everything you've done..
ILYSM <3

Bitter~

Each time when I was alone..
I think of you..
When I hear our songs..
I think of you..
But I hate thinking of you..
Cuz it only bring sorrow in my life..
I'm sorry I acted tough in front of you..
I have to..
Must I tell you that I still cry for you?

You wouldn't even care..

Now please let me move on..
Yes, I won't even let my shadow glimpse in front of you..
Go ahead and hate me..
If that makes you feel better..
I'm better off alone..
Without you~

Tears in Silence~

Suddenly I feel I wanna cry..
I wanna cry my heart out..
I don't feel right..
I feel lonely..
I feel empty..
I feel sad.. n hopeless..

Somehow I don't want people to see the fragile side of me..
The side that I always kept shut..
Locked up in my room..
Where I left behind when I'm outside..
The side that full of sorrow..
Emptiness n loneliness..

I laugh n giggle in front of the crowd..
I smile n have fun with the crowd..
So they won't see my sorrow..
I envy people in happiness..
Those who loved n beloved..
I just wanna be happy~

Applause~

I feel invisible
I feel like don't belong
I feel like stranger
I'm being exploited..

We're living on a stage
Where everybody put on act
Covering their faces with masks
Put on a play
And live in lies
Everything's fake..

I'm tired of all these lies
Lips curved with deceitful smiles
They are laughing but they cry
They are dancing but they tripped
I can only stare and smile
Well done..

Forgive me~

The sun shone in fierce
brighten up every angle of the earth
but will it ever light up my life?

I've tried to please you
but I screwed up each time
There's no use for regret
Upon all the things I've done

And I hope, and I pray
I could fix all my flaws
but then I can only dream
dreaming for a better end

To God I seek for forgiveness
but forgiveness from you meant the most
my dear, I know it's over
but the wound will always bleed~

Thankful~

today i realize my life isn't really bad after all..
i'm one of the most lucky person in this world..
most people didn't have a chance to meet their family..
most importantly their real parents..
i'm thankful that i'm with them since my birth..
even for a short separation got me miss them like crazy..
to those who still have their family and people they love by their sides,
please appreciate them..
we will never know when we will lose them..
love them tenderly..
treat them wisely..
most importantly,
let them know how valuable they are to you..
trust me, they really want to know it..

Leave Me Alone!!!

why won't they just leave me alone?
stop bugging my life..
please.
i've had enough..
i'm tired off all this crap..
STOP!
i just wanna live my life peacefully..
i know all mistakes i've done..
i know all flaws i spit to your life..
and i definitely had learned my lesson, in a hard way..
now, please, cut it all out..
PLEASE.....

The Wind~

I love wind..
i love when the wind blows my hair and hits my face gently..
i wish the wind will also blow all my problems and sorrows away..
leaving peace and calm feeling..
all those thoughts haunting me..
keeping me in misery..
if only the wind can blow me away..
away from this life..
this misery life of mine...