Hiking - New passion ( Bukit Tabur, Melawati )

Lately I've started my outdoor activities again..
Really miss the dirt and the forest smell.. Haha..
I used to be a mountain bike rider for Kemaman and Terengganu team..

The air up there was so different.. Fresh.. Humid..
The breeze was very soothing..
No matter how tired you are, you can still keep going until you reach the hill foot..

I'm an amateur, so I started with smaller hills..
Who knows, later I can climb higher mountains..Amin..

Alhamdulillah, last Sunday, 17th November 2013, we went to Bukit Tabur, Melawati.
Actually we requested the guide, Wan to bring us through easiest route..
He brought us hiked the Bukit Tabur West, that's what they call it..
Few tops, very steep (too me) as you must climb the rocks, going downs and ups 90 degree..
Phew...almost regret my decision that day..But we made it!
Met few new hiking buddies at the top while waiting for my friends at the back..
And also waited for my turn to go down using the rope and very tiny path..

Next trip, don't know yet as monsoon season's coming..
But I will surely conquer Bukit Tabur again, probably on east route next time..Amin..

Twisted tongue..

I don't know who to trust anymore..
Seems everybody I've known is not who they really are..
A told me this, B told me that, Z shared me these..
What the hell happened to this world?
No one seems to appreciate the real meaning of friendship..

Disappointed.

Maybe it's my own fault.. Trust someone easily..
End up sharing things..
In the end the stories got twisted..
Everything point back at us..Me..

*sigh..

What to do now? Play along?
Nahh..
I'll do things on my own..

Taken~

He stole my heart..
He make me sane and insane at the same time..
He's the most stubborn, short tempered person I've ever met..
Never give a damn about what people think of him..
He just live his life his own way..

21st March 2011 when he spit his heart out..
Thank Allah S.W.T, we're still together..
Through thick and thin, joy and sorrow..

31st August 2013, he booked me..
In Malay word called 'merisik'..
So we moved to the next level of relationship..Alhamdulillah..

To my only one Esyad, Thank you for being part of my life..
Helping me through this bittersweet life..
Being the person who make me smile even when I was crying..
Back me up when the world pushed me down..
No one can ever replace you, after everything you've done and sacrificed..

Torment~

Feeling sometimes can be so stupid..
When to think of it, you never knew why you feel so sad out of sudden, with no reason..
Feelings can be so complicated too, because you didn't even know what you actually feel..
It hardly describable,hardly understood,always misinterpreted..

We need to remind ourselves sometimes not to be carried away with our feelings..
We don't don't want to get so caught up with our emotional..
We will face this situation when we are alone,by ourselves..
And then our thoughts started to fill with things and memories..
Things we want and tries to forget so hard..
It will all rushed back at the same time..

So, don't get to carried away..
The pain will be unbearable..

Lie~

Lying to myself..
Trying so hard..
Oh can I do it? Can I survive?
Can I forget you?
All these questions... shooooo

Namy, you can do it..
You are a brave girl..
You are strong..
You can definitely make it..

Whispering to myself..

Move On~

I think it's time for me to move on..
Time for me to let you go for good..
I just hope this pain will heal by this..
And I really hope all the agony and suffering will decrease little by little, bit by bit..

Though it's gonna be hard but hey, I'll face it..
Don't worry about me dear..

Thank you for forgiving me..
Thank you for taking care of me..
Thank you for still accepting me in your life..
Instead of pushing me away permanently..
Thank you for everything you've done..
Honestly, I can never thank you enough..

This time, I will carve the smile..
I know I'm strong.. I'm tough enough and I'll get through..
At least now I know the truth..
And I didn't really lose you..
All I can ever say to you is thank you..my dear..

What If~

Caraphernelia _ Pierce The Veil

What if I can't forget you..

You are the hardest to forget..
The most painful to miss..
It gets harder and harder each day..
It consumed me from the inside..

You never did anything wrong, I'm the one at fault..
Your kindness to forgive me..
I shall never be able to repay..

This feeling I can't hide..
I can't keep lying to myself..
I'll always keep this feeling for myself..

I can only pray for your happiness..
How I hope we can always see each other..
Even just to see your smile, or hear your voice..
Your warm embrace, hurmmm..