Torment~

Feeling sometimes can be so stupid..
When to think of it, you never knew why you feel so sad out of sudden, with no reason..
Feelings can be so complicated too, because you didn't even know what you actually feel..
It hardly describable,hardly understood,always misinterpreted..

We need to remind ourselves sometimes not to be carried away with our feelings..
We don't don't want to get so caught up with our emotional..
We will face this situation when we are alone,by ourselves..
And then our thoughts started to fill with things and memories..
Things we want and tries to forget so hard..
It will all rushed back at the same time..

So, don't get to carried away..
The pain will be unbearable..

Lie~

Lying to myself..
Trying so hard..
Oh can I do it? Can I survive?
Can I forget you?
All these questions... shooooo

Namy, you can do it..
You are a brave girl..
You are strong..
You can definitely make it..

Whispering to myself..

Move On~

I think it's time for me to move on..
Time for me to let you go for good..
I just hope this pain will heal by this..
And I really hope all the agony and suffering will decrease little by little, bit by bit..

Though it's gonna be hard but hey, I'll face it..
Don't worry about me dear..

Thank you for forgiving me..
Thank you for taking care of me..
Thank you for still accepting me in your life..
Instead of pushing me away permanently..
Thank you for everything you've done..
Honestly, I can never thank you enough..

This time, I will carve the smile..
I know I'm strong.. I'm tough enough and I'll get through..
At least now I know the truth..
And I didn't really lose you..
All I can ever say to you is thank you..my dear..

What If~

Caraphernelia _ Pierce The Veil

What if I can't forget you..

You are the hardest to forget..
The most painful to miss..
It gets harder and harder each day..
It consumed me from the inside..

You never did anything wrong, I'm the one at fault..
Your kindness to forgive me..
I shall never be able to repay..

This feeling I can't hide..
I can't keep lying to myself..
I'll always keep this feeling for myself..

I can only pray for your happiness..
How I hope we can always see each other..
Even just to see your smile, or hear your voice..
Your warm embrace, hurmmm..